MY HEALTHY LIVING JOURNEY,
HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH MY WEIGHT FOR MANY YEARS NOW, THROUGH DENIAL AND GIVING UP, I HAVE MADE MYSELF BELIEVE I WAS OKAY WITH WERE I AM. BUT I WAS NOT BEING HONEST WITH MYSELF,
I WAS OUT OF CONTROL AND OPERATING IN ADDICT BEHAVIOR. I KNEW THIS BUT WAS NOT HONEST WITH MYSELF ABOUT IT, IN THE LAST COUPLE WEEKS I HAVE BEEN TO THE DOCTOR FOR WELLNESS CHECK UPS, WHEN THE SCALE TOLD ME I HAD GAIN MORE WEIGHT THEN LAST YEAR NOW MIND YOU I HAVE A SCALE AT HOME BUT REFUSED TO GET ON IT BECAUSE I KNEW I HAD GAINED WEIGHT, I HAVE NEVER WEIGHT THIS IN MY LIFE AS LONG AS I WAS MAINTAINING THE WEIGHT I WAS AT I MADE MYSELF THINK IM ALL GOOD “JUST DON’T GAIN ANYMORE” IS WHAT I WOULD SAY. I’M ON 3 TYPES OF BLOOD PRESSURE MEDS AND STILL MY PRESSURE IS TO HIGH SO NOW SHW WANTS TO PUT ME ON A 3RD.
MY BLOOD WORK COME BACK I’M PRE DIABETIC, CHOLESTEROL IS TO HIGH . NOTHING LIKE THE RAW TRUTH FROM A PROFESSIONAL TO SHAKE YOUR FOUNDATION ESPECIALLY ONE THAT SHOWS TRUE CONCERN FOR YOU. SHE GIVING YOU THE TRUTH AS THE BLOOD IS SAYING, HOW MANY KNOW THE BLOOD TALKS,
From the beginning blood has been regarded by God as a most precious thing. In Genesis we read where God spoke to Cain, “The voice of thy brother’s blood crieth unto me from the ground” (4:10). GENESIS 4:10 The LORD said, "What have you done? Listen! Your brother's blood cries out to me from the ground.
THIS I CAN NO LONGER DENY, PLEASE BELIEVE I HAVE TRIED TO DO THE HEALTHY EATING, DO GOOD FOR MAYBE 3-4 WEEKS THEN I SLOWLY GO BACK TO MY OLD WAYS, BUT THIS TIME SPIRIT HAS REMINDED ME OF ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUNTS THAT DIED FROM UNHEALTHY EATING BLOOD PRESSURE WAS SO HIGH SHE HAD NOISE BLEEDS, SHE WAS NOT A OLD WOMAN LOOKING AT HOW LONG MY MOTHER HAS LIVED SHE HAD A GOOD 30 MORE YEARS.
TODAY WAS MY BREAKING POINT, I HAVE AN GOOD FRIEND/SISTER@Terri Clair ALWAYS THERE TO ENCOURAGE ME AND MY CHILDREN, SHE ONCE SAID TO ME A YEAR AGO WHEN I WAS FACED WITH THIS SAME ISSUE, THAT FOOD WOULD NOT BE WHAT SHE WOULD DIE FROM, THAT HURT MY FEELINGS BUT IT ALSO STUCK IN MY SPIRIT AND BUBBLED UP RECENTLY, SHE WAS NOT TRYING TO HURT MY FEELING SHE DIDN’T MEAN IT TO BE HURTFUL TO ME AT ALL, BUT WHAT COMES FROM THE HEART REACHES THE HEART. AND WHEN I WAS READY TO RECEIVE IT IN THE SPIRIT THAT SHE SAID IT, IT WOULD HELP ME GET TO MY ROCK BOTTOM.
SO FOR THE LAST MONTH I BEEN STRUGGLING TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW AM I GOING TO DO THIS WHAT DO I NEED TO DO, FOR ME TO GET VICTORY, SPIRIT SAID WHAT DID YOU DO THE LAST TIME YOU WAS FACED WITH A MOUNTAIN THAT YOU KNEW YOU COULD NOT MOVE , I’M THINKING TO MYSELF REMEMBERING MY DAYS OF ADDICTION AND THE LAST TIME I HIT ROCK BOTTOM, SEE ROCK BOTTOM FOR ME IS ALWAYS GOD TELLING ME THIS IS ENOUGH DON’T GO ANOTHER STEP IN THIS UN HEALTHY BEHAVIOR.
SO NOW I’M HEARING ALOT OF VOICES AND WORDS THAT I ONCE HEARD ALMOST TWENTY YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS BATTLING MY CRACK ADDICTION, I HEAR MY SISTER Celeste Henderson, WHO LISTEN WHEN I HAD HARD DAYS AND DIDN’T WANT TO DO WHAT WAS ASKED OF ME, SHE WOULD SAY “THE VERY THING YOU DON’T WANT TO DO , IS THE THING YOU NEED TO DO” I HEAR THE COUNCILORS AT HAY MARKET RECOVERY AND REMEMBER THE RIDE WITH MY BEST FRIEND BONNIE TO DETOX. BUT WHAT I REMEMBERED THE MOST WAS ME SURRENDERING TO GOD AND PROMISING TO DO WHAT HE TOLD ME TO DO. AND SO I HAD MY MOMENT WITH MY FATHER, I CRIED OUT TO HIM AND I SURRENDER TO HIM. AS I LISTEN TO THIS SONG (LET YOUR POWER FALL) I ADMIT TODAY THAT I AM POWERLESS, I AM POWERLESS AND I WILL ONLY OVER COME THROUGH THE POWER OF YESHUA......”GO BACK TO YOUR HUMBLE BEGINNINGS AND SURRENDER TO ME AS A CHILD, I GOT YOU DAUGHTER LOOK BACK OVER YOUR LIFE WE BEEN HERE BEFORE HAVE I EVER LET YOU DOWN AS YOU STEP OUT IN FAITH AND DO YOUR WORK, I WILL GIVE YOU THE STRENGTH TO GET OVER EVERY HURDLE.”
Patricia Harris-Dokes, 5/25/18
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